Monday, November 11, 2013

Reaching my Happy Weight

Why is it so hard to talk about weight? I suppose because it has to do with our bodies, confidence, looks, insecurities, and lots of other things that aren't always the most comfortable conversations. I know what I'm trying to write about right now but I'm having a hard time knowing where to start or how to say it. So I think I'll just start writing without trying to sugar-coat anything or worry about how it sounds...

I want to lose weight - about 20 pounds actually, which is a lot. The part that I think is the most embarrassing is that I've done it before: almost 4 years ago I weighed a little over this weight, worked my butt off (literally!), lost over 20 pounds, and felt great about myself in time for our wedding day. Since our wedding day just over 3 years ago, I've slowly put the weight back on. I'm not at my all-time high but I'm close and it's so disappointing to think about having to start all over again.
Feeling like you're starting all over sucks. But I want to.

Not pictured: husband holding train of dress.

I remind myself all the time that I want to do this to be healthy. And although being healthy is not about a number on the scale, I need to get my weight back down to the number where my mind+body feel happy, healthy, and relaxed - my Happy Weight. In the grand scheme of things this is not about being skinny, looking great in a bikini, or having a nice butt; although those would all probably be in the "Top 10 Perks of Being at Your Happy Weight". This is about relieving stress, having a healthy heart, being active, getting good sleep, and feeding my body energizing foods.

My pants don't feel comfy - unless you count my leggings as pants. I don't enjoy getting dressed in the morning. I don't really feel like shopping for clothes. These are all things that just feel like a complete bummer right now. I've been working harder for the past 4ish weeks, but I haven't been giving it 100%. Sure, I've been to the gym and have been making some better eating choices in the past 30 days, but I've only lost like 2 pounds and I know I can do better. I want to do better. I want to be at that Happy Weight again and I don't want to let myself use Thanksgiving, Christmas, Veteran's Day, Election Day, Boxing Day or any other holiday as an excuse. I want to start the 2014 New Year with a resolution to 'keep living a healthy life and mantain my weight', rather than 'start living a healthier life and lose weight'.

Anyone else with me or ever struggle with this?

And on a serious note: Thank you to all of our Veterans who have served our country and all the men and women who are doing so currently. We are lucky to live in a country protected by those brave men and women. 


  1. Good luck to you! I am currently in the process of trying to get back to my happy weight too. I go through cycles, like you described, of finding that weight, getting comfortable and it slowly creeps back on. Right now I am trying to lose 20 pounds as well. I started working out on a regular basis again about 6 months ago, but I was not giving it 100%. Some days I didn't even sweat when I worked out! How did I expect to lose weight? :( Since Nov 5th I have been on a "give it one month" kick, working out harder and eating better and I already lost 4 pounds!!!!! :) You can do it!! :)

  2. My friends and me are doing the same thing. Getting back to healthy eating and working out consistently. It is tough but so worth it. You got this!

  3. I'm totally with you! I'm basically the same situation as you. You can do it!!!

  4. Ah totally there. Its just not any fun when you don't feel good about yourself! Its hard to make the sacrifices to eat healthy, but I feel so much better when I do that!

  5. Good luck! If I can do this, you can too! Right now I'm on the wedding diet. 5 months to go and I'm finding it so hard to stay focused. Thanks for sharing and for the motivation!

  6. You look amazing!!!! Good luck!!! I am dieting and it is hard but you look amazing girl!

  7. GIRL this is seriously a post I could've written word for word. I lost about 20 pounds a few years ago, was in the best shape ever, and over the past few years, about 20 pounds have creeped on, a couple here, a couple there, and now my clothes dont really fit and I just feel terrible about myself. Lets keep each other motivated as we make the journey to our fit, healthy, happy weight !

  8. I have been struggling like no other as of!!! You look great in your wedding pics!

  9. Hi! I completely understand about just wanting to be healthy. I actually linked to this post in a new post on my blog today. Thanks for being an inspiration and keep on being a rockstar!

    xoxo Jenny


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