Thursday, May 23, 2013

With a Heavy Heart

My dad always says "good things happen to good people".
And I believe him. I truly do. 
But why do bad things have to happen to good people, too?

Have you seen this video? It's heart-wrenching. Why does a 17 year-old boy who's so completely full of life only get 17 years to live?
Why did my husband, a strong kid who turned into a compassionate and inspiring man, have to choose to move out of his family's dysfunctional home as soon as he turned 18?
Why are people and children dying in Oklahoma due to a natural disaster that is completely out of their control?
Why are some people still coming to work everyday when their family or life seems to be falling apart?

I know God has a plan and everything happens for a reason. Isn't that how the saying goes? But sometimes, don't you just feel like knowing that still isn't enough? Because at the same time, I get reminded of the tough situations that we ourselves have had to overcome in our mere 25 years of life. Or  I know there's a good person who's hurting in some way. 

And it's with a heavy heart that I say a little prayer.

Even though we know there's a plan or a reason or whatever, everyone, at some point in their life, has thought to themselves "Why me?" Or "Why him? He's such a good person." Sometimes I wonder, if I think these questions to myself, does it mean that I'm questioning God and his plan? Maybe I am, because let's be honest - there have been times when, if I could talk to God, I would say, "What the heck are you thinking? Horrible plan, God. Horrible plan."


But we can't talk to God, which means we have to trust in God. Good things happen to good people, and we have to trust in God to allow those good things to find their path. I think that sometimes, being exposed to bad situations are supposed to remind me of how lucky I am. So I feel like tonight, I need to feel lucky. And I need to say thank you.

I'm thankful to be alive.
I'm thankful for a husband that supports, forgives, and loves me with his whole being.
I'm thankful to have a normal and safe family that loves each other unconditionally.
I'm thankful that I have a home. And a roof. And a warm bed to sleep in tonight.
I'm thankful that, although my life isn't perfect, it's pretty darn good.

5 comments:

  1. All we can do is be thankful for everyday we are blessed with life!

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  2. I can't tell you how many times I've said that out loud to myself or a friend: "Everything happens for a reason." It's impossible to tell what that reason is in the moment most of the time, but I am a firm believer that there IS a reason, and it usually reveals itself eventually.

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  3. I love this post. I have "everything happens for a reason" tattooed on my back, actually. It's so scary the way some things happen and the awful things that happen to people. There have been so many people I grew up with and went to school with that have committed suicide or died in car accidents. It's so sad, and sometimes it's hard to understand why those things had to happen.

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  4. I've often heard life described as a tapestry, of which we can only the see the back, the individual stitches. As humans, we are not able to see the big picture, the front side of the tapestry. Unfortunately, that means we have to trust that it is all part of God's perfect plan and that it is beautiful from His point of view. This is not always easy.

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  5. I think sometimes we simply just have to stop looking for the answers. If we were suppose to know them, I'm sure we would. In the mean time, it's about surrounding ourselves with as much love as we can and if and when it's taken from us, at least we can cherish that we found it before we lost it. It's not easy is it :-(

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